Introduction

Over three years ago, I got COVID. The symptoms were severe, and I spent months navigating long COVID. It disrupted my daily life, and I deeply grieved the loss of my health — especially after all the effort I had poured into my wellness.

Then something unexpected happened: I fell in love. Almost magically, my long COVID symptoms disappeared overnight, as if love itself had healed me. While the relationship was short-lived, I couldn’t ignore the “coincidence.” Could love truly have been the catalyst for healing, or was it just chance? At the time, I was an atheist — I didn’t believe in God, spirit, or anything that couldn’t be proven by science.

About nine months later, during a deep inner journey, I encountered my own spirit — and my life shattered. I no longer knew how to live as a human being. Everything I had built my identity on suddenly felt meaningless.

I came to see that I had been approaching life all wrong. I hadn’t come into this world simply to accomplish, achieve, or keep striving to become “better” and “better.” I couldn’t see where I belonged anymore, nor why I was on this planet at all. Life seemed to hold a much greater purpose — one I couldn’t yet grasp.

By the end of 2023, the journey deepened profoundly. I met the Divine — and in that moment, I was the Divine. Everyone and everything was. There was no separation, no boundary, no exclusion — only unity, love, and light.

Despite this awakening, life continued to challenge me. In 2024, I fell in love again — deeper than ever — and once again, the relationship didn’t last. It felt as if the universe kept giving me a taste of love, only to take it away once I fully embraced it. The heartbreak was deep—grief, hurt, loneliness. I longed for connection. To ease the pain, I turned to nightly meditation, sitting with my emotions and allowing myself to feel them fully. In that stillness, something began to shift. What started as an attempt to soothe my loneliness became a love affair — not with a person, but with the Divine itself. ✨

I realized that opening my heart to another was never about getting something in return — not a relationship, not validation, not security, not companionship, not even relief from loneliness. It was about learning to open my heart to life itself: to myself, to others, to all beings, and ultimately to the truth — I am love.

For the first time, I experienced an immense, unconditional love embracing me with no expectation. A love that never gave up on me, even when I gave up on it. A love that was always there, even when I wasn’t “good enough” or “successful enough.” In this love, there were no labels — no good or bad, no worthy or unworthy — just love.

That was the beginning of my heart-opening journey and my love affair with the Divine. Over time, this journey deepened — and with it came challenges. Life kept inviting me to love: to love difficult people, to love those whose values conflicted with mine, to love painful circumstances, to love ideologies that opposed my beliefs, to love my own shadows, my struggles, and life itself for what it is.

Every time I reached what I thought was the limit of unconditional love — when I told the Divine, “Dude, unconditional love isn’t practical in the human world” — I discovered yet another layer of darkness within my own heart that needed to be shed in order for me to love unconditionally.

During this time, I was guided first by GuruJnana, my master spiritual teacher, and later handed over to Koreynia, who revealed her name to me in a dream and later unveiled her essence in a profound, transformative journey.

I refer to Koreynia as “she” — though she is both feminine and masculine, and neither.

My intention in sharing these writings is simply to offer Koreynia’s teachings to the world — as she lovingly urged me to do.

The publications will initially be more frequent, as I am sharing notes from the past, and I will add dates whenever I find them in my notes. Moving forward, the frequency is unknown to me; I trust Koreynia’s timing.